发 泄 .

不懂

我其实不懂,为什么有时候看到他

应该觉得开心的

你心爱的人呐,应该是很开心的吗

但是

不懂做么的,只好勉强微笑

不是故意要欺骗他.

只是不要他担心...

我那时很想,很想...

得到他的拥抱.

今天回家后,

很想搞失踪,做傻事.

但又做不出.

你们也会这样吗?

你们会不懂什么原因而崩溃,想要大哭一场.

有时候觉得很累.

其实

我都希望"她"可以带走我,带走我离开这个复杂的世界.

我不敢想或看未来,

每天看到老爸每晚都喝醉,婆婆因为她而哭,姐姐一直为钱烦恼所以一直打工.

每天睡觉

我都很想梦到我们一家人开开心心过日子

"她"还活着的日子...

那么快已经要一年了.

她已离开我们的日子.......

我很怕....我不懂我在怕什么....就觉得...没有安全感...

哎...

♥ saranghae

Oh boy,
you took my heart away.
You made my day.
You never fail to cheer me up.

I wish, i hope our relationship last long.
eventhough the chances is so low.
but im glad,

im glad that i know you =)

14/7/12

the 1st month ♥

OYJ  ♥

STUDIES .HECTIC.STRESS

issshh
gotta start study , gotta start study.
i told myself for like....billion times?
but i still cant focus.
ugh!!
its like two more weeks to trial and i haven ready a single subject!
gosh.
trial is really really important to me!
but i was like living my life and dont gave any damn for my life.


GOTTA START FOCUS, STUDY !!

gambateh angelina low ! hwaiting !!!

Dream About you .

Woke up at 8 in the morning.
went breakie with my awesome daddy at Beelun.
went home
fell asleep


uhm...actually i had a weird dream
i was sitting next to my mum.
she was as adorable as always.
we were laughing in car
went for shopping...

then BAM, i woke up.

Flashback started to happen.
Last year.
whole month.
she fell ill.
lay on bed.

those moan , painful moan. faint voice..

man, this is a nightmare...

i miss you....mummy...