发 泄 .

不懂

我其实不懂,为什么有时候看到他

应该觉得开心的

你心爱的人呐,应该是很开心的吗

但是

不懂做么的,只好勉强微笑

不是故意要欺骗他.

只是不要他担心...

我那时很想,很想...

得到他的拥抱.

今天回家后,

很想搞失踪,做傻事.

但又做不出.

你们也会这样吗?

你们会不懂什么原因而崩溃,想要大哭一场.

有时候觉得很累.

其实

我都希望"她"可以带走我,带走我离开这个复杂的世界.

我不敢想或看未来,

每天看到老爸每晚都喝醉,婆婆因为她而哭,姐姐一直为钱烦恼所以一直打工.

每天睡觉

我都很想梦到我们一家人开开心心过日子

"她"还活着的日子...

那么快已经要一年了.

她已离开我们的日子.......

我很怕....我不懂我在怕什么....就觉得...没有安全感...

哎...

♥ saranghae

Oh boy,
you took my heart away.
You made my day.
You never fail to cheer me up.

I wish, i hope our relationship last long.
eventhough the chances is so low.
but im glad,

im glad that i know you =)

14/7/12

the 1st month ♥

OYJ  ♥

STUDIES .HECTIC.STRESS

issshh
gotta start study , gotta start study.
i told myself for like....billion times?
but i still cant focus.
ugh!!
its like two more weeks to trial and i haven ready a single subject!
gosh.
trial is really really important to me!
but i was like living my life and dont gave any damn for my life.


GOTTA START FOCUS, STUDY !!

gambateh angelina low ! hwaiting !!!

Dream About you .

Woke up at 8 in the morning.
went breakie with my awesome daddy at Beelun.
went home
fell asleep


uhm...actually i had a weird dream
i was sitting next to my mum.
she was as adorable as always.
we were laughing in car
went for shopping...

then BAM, i woke up.

Flashback started to happen.
Last year.
whole month.
she fell ill.
lay on bed.

those moan , painful moan. faint voice..

man, this is a nightmare...

i miss you....mummy...

妈

妈，我想你了


为什么你要离开？

为什么你的离开给我了很多烦恼？

Friend or couples?

ITs kinda annoying.
people want more than friends.
but, aren't like this, is not better?
we can hang out together
laugh together
but theres a limit.

argh, i hate getting myself frustrated with this problems.

i met several new friend(quite?)
they are all friendly and nice, i feel comfortable when mix with them.....
even tho sometimes they treat me like a boy-.-
but i dont know why, i like this.
its not that im "HIAO" or what
hey, mixing boys means hiao?

are you still in the 80s? sometimes we have to dare to mix.
and please, just friends , why all of you look like we are so complicated?
haihs.

i love them, as a friend!!!
i love playing and mixing with them
after mixing with them , i never had so much fun,
i realise i been stuck in this home for a long time.
time to see the world, not a worm in the house.
=D

L O V E

have you ever thought before this problem, about love?
its like , you like him , he like you too, both of you guys know that you like each other, but both of you are being pulled back.
because there are friends we dont want hurt, and future that we know we are going to be separated.

yeah, im in it.i just like, not super love.
i just think, hey , he's a good guy.
but both of us let it go, well, at least we are trying right now.
both of us chose friendship against love.

dont worry, i will make sure even both of us cant be lovers, but we can be a good friend.