hello bloggie!!!

long time didnt write blog..
there are few things i wanna say..

16-4-2012
happy belated birthday ~ =)
altho i didnt wish you directly, i just wish u right here, quietly.
i hope you are healthy and happy with your life!
...

exam coming!!!! eeeeeeeeeee
i haven studying.. im just done chapter 2 of chemi( well...roughly... not perfectly.. =P)

i just wanna improve, not dropping out !
gambateh wen!
dont look or compare with others.. if wan compare, a positive comparision ! not envy or what.
coz its not healthy.
let other be your motivation, not your stress !

gogogo!

lalalalalal
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAH YOU'RE JUST THE SAME.
STILL SAY M E LOL !

everytime u do it u make me laugh~~~~~

ola ... xD

*playing online game *

suddenly an old player/friend online...

chat and chat...

he asked:' how are you? still with xxxxx ?"
i was like... lol......
i said: he got gf already.....

>.

awkward moment when people thought we still together(well actually not together, just very close~ )

now suddenly feel  we are like total strangers now.

=) but if he's happy , im happy ^.^

haihsss~

everytime this question will come over my mind.

eventho you hurt me so much,

but i still think the same question today, how are you right now? doing fine? without me? =)

i saw you, but wasnt sure is you or not..

haha, are you happy right now?


i miss you =) * gosh does miss have to be couple love? cant it be a simple friendly miss? please stop think wrongly! *

Hugs

Now, i just need a big strong hug,

Eventho i know i will miss you.
but the pain, eventually i will break into pieces, and scattered everywhere.
eventho i know i will miss you deadly,
but if you decided to purposely do all those movement to provoke me.
please , stop , it.
why, why you wanna be like this?
is it fun provoking me ?
well, maybe im immuned to it,
coz you are the 2nd person provoking me :)
haha.. i dont know why , everyone likes to tease me ,
and i dont know why too, i have to bear those provokings and mockings.
eventho it hurts like hell.
eventually im holding everything up.
sometimes i just wanna cry out loud, but i cant.
i only can do a placcid smile,
to everyone.
to tell everyone im perfectly fine,eventho im not, at all.

i wanna grab your arms, and yell at you , and tell you, it hurts.
i wanna cry right in front of you, to tell you my pain.

but i cant,when i see your face, flashbacks occur in my mind.
its like a quick glance to our past.
so i ended up, smiling to you.

i wish, you can hold me tight, eventho its hard to breathe, but please, hug me , hug me tight.
let it be forever, dont ever let go me.so that i wont let go you too.

im sorry, im selfish, i dont take another step towards you, because i had it enough.
if you ever think about taking another step, please let the step be a hug , it will be statisfying.
 please stop your childish acts, it annoys.
 stop everything, and start hugging.

a hug can mean a thousand words, expressions , feelings.

3-4-2012

hahahahahaha sometimes when i see your wall..

you , make , me , laugh ! 

because you are just doing the same, dude, whats your rights to say me?

you tease me, but you are just doing the same.

i dunno why, everytime you make me give you a sympatic smile. :D

because you teach me to do it

and 1 more thing.

dont think i dunno anything,

i know alot than you !