HEYY HE IS NOT JUST THAT INTO YOU OKAY?? STOP THINKING THAT HE LIKES YOU, BECAUSE, HE DON'T AND HE DIDN'T LIKE YOU ALRIGHT??? ANGELL LOWW WAKE UP!!!! he is not just that into you.he is not, he won't , he will never get into you ALRIGHT ?!?!?!?!?
stop dreaming lar..... STOP IT... !!!!
you're not charming pretty or whatsoever, what you think he'll be liking you? anything for him to like?? NO RIGHT!?!?!?!?! THEN?!?!?! STILL THINK?!??!?!! DROP IT OUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
sigh...
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Interested
Geeezz... why those relationship thing can't get out of my mind!
hey ~~ stop looking at boys. urghh i wish i can totally forget about a thing call RELATIONSHIP. it seriously irritates me !
hey ~~ stop looking at boys. urghh i wish i can totally forget about a thing call RELATIONSHIP. it seriously irritates me !
Friday, January 28, 2011
relationship status.
well,yea. i broke up with him already.done with it.but yet he say me i flirt with boys, especially malay boys, which are totally ridiculous, i don't flirt okay.if i know them well i will mix and talk with them like besties. not for flirting okay, you think i very like flirting?? zzz, NONSENSE DUDE, i DONT FLIRT THE DAMN HELL WHATSOEVER.
nevermind, no use kept on talking on the same topic right? it's time to forget.he's not a jerk anyway. he is a cute and adorable, but his attitude..i can't stand any longer. well, impossible i force myself to continue such relationship right? i know im not perfect too. i wanted to end it faster because it's suffering for both of us. what for wasting our time at something that is not worthy? his words, ALWAYS change. in a minute he say yes, next minute he'll tell no. i was like, wtf? can't you secure your answers?
LOL I SAID BACK THE TOPIC AGAIN.saying that " i should forget" and i go on continue saying about him. HEY * SLAP MYSELF* okay... chills.
i wanted to know, what is the feeling of like? what is the true feeling of liking someone??how to make sure that it's not puppy love???
sigh... im a bad girl. i hurted someone's feeling. he's nice, but not for me... but it's okay for him to hate me. i accepted it, im not perfect too.. im sorry, M.you;re nice. but... i don't think im totally into you. just friends... although we're not now....
really, our life is full of REGRETS. why？ knowing it too late, and cant do anything right. pathetic feeling, dreadful,hatred. AHH, full of words to describe the feeling.
single best, i think. nothing to worry of, but, the person who waits you might go crazy!!!!
hahahah.
xoxo alls. :)
nevermind, no use kept on talking on the same topic right? it's time to forget.he's not a jerk anyway. he is a cute and adorable, but his attitude..i can't stand any longer. well, impossible i force myself to continue such relationship right? i know im not perfect too. i wanted to end it faster because it's suffering for both of us. what for wasting our time at something that is not worthy? his words, ALWAYS change. in a minute he say yes, next minute he'll tell no. i was like, wtf? can't you secure your answers?
LOL I SAID BACK THE TOPIC AGAIN.saying that " i should forget" and i go on continue saying about him. HEY * SLAP MYSELF* okay... chills.
i wanted to know, what is the feeling of like? what is the true feeling of liking someone??how to make sure that it's not puppy love???
sigh... im a bad girl. i hurted someone's feeling. he's nice, but not for me... but it's okay for him to hate me. i accepted it, im not perfect too.. im sorry, M.you;re nice. but... i don't think im totally into you. just friends... although we're not now....
really, our life is full of REGRETS. why？ knowing it too late, and cant do anything right. pathetic feeling, dreadful,hatred. AHH, full of words to describe the feeling.
single best, i think. nothing to worry of, but, the person who waits you might go crazy!!!!
hahahah.
xoxo alls. :)
Monday, December 13, 2010
sentenced till death, you are GUILTY
I thought i am the always one making everything right.
i thought is isn't me making up the problem.
now i seriously realise, the problem person, is ME.
I didn't understand why i reacted like this, I use mean words, that might cut your heart.
the Guiltiness.... wandering in my heart, how, how can i let it go?
which is the best way to solve it?
I'm sorry, i hate myself too.
i thought is isn't me making up the problem.
now i seriously realise, the problem person, is ME.
I didn't understand why i reacted like this, I use mean words, that might cut your heart.
the Guiltiness.... wandering in my heart, how, how can i let it go?
which is the best way to solve it?
I'm sorry, i hate myself too.
Monday, October 25, 2010
what am I?
I didn't want to talk about that night. it's so crazy. so much pain .
why.
after that day. I acting pretty weird. okay try to understand please,doesn't mean I'm acting, i just, react, automatically. that's weird, for me too.
It's so stupid.
He says'
yOU'RE so weird,totally different, who are you?
I've been asking this myself, is it because of period?lol.
My weird-ness, making him pissed off.
I laugh for no reason, no mood for no reason.
okay. I wanna talk about something yesterday.
nevermind. IT IS ALL JUST WORDS.
i comfort myself,
^_^ nvm it's all just words. didn't mean anything...
ouch..
my chest... hurts..
why.
after that day. I acting pretty weird. okay try to understand please,doesn't mean I'm acting, i just, react, automatically. that's weird, for me too.
It's so stupid.
He says'
yOU'RE so weird,totally different, who are you?
I've been asking this myself, is it because of period?lol.
My weird-ness, making him pissed off.
I laugh for no reason, no mood for no reason.
okay. I wanna talk about something yesterday.
nevermind. IT IS ALL JUST WORDS.
i comfort myself,
^_^ nvm it's all just words. didn't mean anything...
ouch..
my chest... hurts..
Thursday, October 21, 2010
20.10.2010
20.10.2010
sucha meaningful day uh? yeah, it's meaningful to me, very much.
The arguements___
Leads to breakups.
Reason:The past.
which is said " lame reason." by him.
why is it " lame"?
He still said that;why wouldn't you forget about it?why?no one will support you with that lame reason;this is not enough evidence for breaking up.."
In my freaking mind, i just wanted to say , " fuck you, you bloody hell jerk,I TOLD YOU ALREADY,FOR THE FREAKING MANY TIMES, I TRIED ALRIGHT?! I TRIED THE FUCKING HELL TO FORGET THIS FUCKING THING!! AND WHO SAYS I WANTED SUPPORT? ITS MY RIGHT TO SAY SOMETHING. ALRIGHT? SON OF A BITCH.fuck you."
but,this sentence didn't escaped from my mouth.I'm speechless, am I too afraid to speak out?I stayed motionless.
Why? what am i suppose to say now?
What I've tried to defend myself, is all WRONG.
Forget about it! what I've said, it;s all fucking wrong.
I have no rights to speak up for myself.
"You're not allowed to cry."..thats what he said.
My heart,throbbed painfully.
Not allowed to cry? so what am i suppose to do now? sit down and laugh out loud?
I can't take it any longer!
So i said,"okay ..time for bed, good nights :') "
After hunging up the phone,I yelled,I screamed inside of my heart.I pulled my hair to ease my pain.I screamed with all my strength.
Tear dropped endlessly.
After a short while, I stopped crying.
I felt that,im nothing.
I immediately walked upstairs, straight forward to my room.
Locked the door,switch off the lights.
I remain silent and motionless in the pitch black room.
I felt a sudden vibration nearby;it's my phone.
its him.
I shuddered as I picked up his call.
What mistake i'm gonna do again? please, angel, no more mistake please...
"Hello." I can't believe I managed to speak up.
"hey,I'm worried,come on call me back."
"okay."I hung up his call.
Suddenly, I screamed really, really loud,still worried that what if my parents did hear me screaming.
"Liars...LIARSSSSS"
I didn't understand why i screamed LIARS.it just, come out for no reason..
I let out a pitiful cry,out of my heart.
I walked to downstairs
Dialing his number ; 0 - 6 - 6 - * * * * *
His house numver;i'll never forget.
To-Be-Continued.
sucha meaningful day uh? yeah, it's meaningful to me, very much.
The arguements___
Leads to breakups.
Reason:The past.
which is said " lame reason." by him.
why is it " lame"?
He still said that;why wouldn't you forget about it?why?no one will support you with that lame reason;this is not enough evidence for breaking up.."
In my freaking mind, i just wanted to say , " fuck you, you bloody hell jerk,I TOLD YOU ALREADY,FOR THE FREAKING MANY TIMES, I TRIED ALRIGHT?! I TRIED THE FUCKING HELL TO FORGET THIS FUCKING THING!! AND WHO SAYS I WANTED SUPPORT? ITS MY RIGHT TO SAY SOMETHING. ALRIGHT? SON OF A BITCH.fuck you."
but,this sentence didn't escaped from my mouth.I'm speechless, am I too afraid to speak out?I stayed motionless.
Why? what am i suppose to say now?
What I've tried to defend myself, is all WRONG.
Forget about it! what I've said, it;s all fucking wrong.
I have no rights to speak up for myself.
"You're not allowed to cry."..thats what he said.
My heart,throbbed painfully.
Not allowed to cry? so what am i suppose to do now? sit down and laugh out loud?
I can't take it any longer!
So i said,"okay ..time for bed, good nights :') "
After hunging up the phone,I yelled,I screamed inside of my heart.I pulled my hair to ease my pain.I screamed with all my strength.
Tear dropped endlessly.
After a short while, I stopped crying.
I felt that,im nothing.
I immediately walked upstairs, straight forward to my room.
Locked the door,switch off the lights.
I remain silent and motionless in the pitch black room.
I felt a sudden vibration nearby;it's my phone.
its him.
I shuddered as I picked up his call.
What mistake i'm gonna do again? please, angel, no more mistake please...
"Hello." I can't believe I managed to speak up.
"hey,I'm worried,come on call me back."
"okay."I hung up his call.
Suddenly, I screamed really, really loud,still worried that what if my parents did hear me screaming.
"Liars...LIARSSSSS"
I didn't understand why i screamed LIARS.it just, come out for no reason..
I let out a pitiful cry,out of my heart.
I walked to downstairs
Dialing his number ; 0 - 6 - 6 - * * * * *
His house numver;i'll never forget.
To-Be-Continued.
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