sentenced till death, you are GUILTY

I thought i am the always one making everything right.

i thought is isn't me making up the problem.


now i seriously realise, the problem person, is ME.

I didn't understand why i reacted like this, I use mean words, that might cut your heart.

the Guiltiness.... wandering in my heart, how, how can i let it go?

which is the best way to solve it?

I'm sorry, i hate myself too.

我又出错了_______

我又出错了。
怎么办？？？？
为什么我那么笨？？？为什么我做错？？

我又让他失望了。

我太没用了。

我.....我好笨。

what am I?

I didn't want to talk about that night. it's so crazy. so much pain .
why.
after that day. I acting pretty weird. okay try to understand please,doesn't mean I'm acting, i just, react, automatically. that's weird, for me too.
It's so stupid.

He says'
yOU'RE so weird,totally different, who are you?

I've been asking this myself, is it because of period?lol.

My weird-ness, making him pissed off.

I laugh for no reason, no mood for no reason.

okay. I wanna talk about something yesterday.


nevermind. IT IS ALL JUST WORDS.

i comfort myself,
^_^ nvm it's all just words. didn't mean anything...

ouch..


my chest... hurts..

20.10.2010

20.10.2010
sucha meaningful day uh? yeah, it's meaningful to me, very much.

The arguements___
Leads to breakups.
Reason:The past.
which is said " lame reason." by him.
why is it " lame"?

He still said that;why wouldn't you forget about it?why?no one will support you with that lame reason;this is not enough evidence for breaking up.."

In my freaking mind, i just wanted to say , " fuck you, you bloody hell jerk,I TOLD YOU ALREADY,FOR THE FREAKING MANY TIMES, I TRIED ALRIGHT?! I TRIED THE FUCKING HELL TO FORGET THIS FUCKING THING!! AND WHO SAYS I WANTED SUPPORT? ITS MY RIGHT TO SAY SOMETHING. ALRIGHT? SON OF A BITCH.fuck you."

but,this sentence didn't escaped from my mouth.I'm speechless, am I too afraid to speak out?I stayed motionless.
Why? what am i suppose to say now?
What I've tried to defend myself, is all WRONG.

Forget about it! what I've said, it;s all fucking wrong.
I have no rights to speak up for myself.
"You're not allowed to cry."..thats what he said.
My heart,throbbed painfully.
Not allowed to cry? so what am i suppose to do now? sit down and laugh out loud?
I can't take it any longer!
So i said,"okay ..time for bed, good nights :') "
After hunging up the phone,I yelled,I screamed inside of my heart.I pulled my hair to ease my pain.I screamed with all my strength.
Tear dropped endlessly.

After a short while, I stopped crying.
I felt that,im nothing.
I immediately walked upstairs, straight forward to my room.
Locked the door,switch off the lights.
I remain silent and motionless in the pitch black room.
I felt a sudden vibration nearby;it's my phone.
its him.

I shuddered as I picked up his call.
What mistake i'm gonna do again? please, angel, no more mistake please...
"Hello." I can't believe I managed to speak up.

"hey,I'm worried,come on call me back."

"okay."I hung up his call.
Suddenly, I screamed really, really loud,still worried that what if my parents did hear me screaming.
"Liars...LIARSSSSS"
I didn't understand why i screamed LIARS.it just, come out for no reason..
I let out a pitiful cry,out of my heart.

I walked to downstairs
Dialing his number ; 0 - 6 - 6 - * * * * *
His house numver;i'll never forget.


To-Be-Continued.

Hatred.

i hated my life.
peoples says : " you should be thankful because your house is wealthy.You can go overseas but other ppl can't . you can use your money to buy things that is deer to some other people."


No.
i dont feel so.
i hated my life.
its painful.
its crazy.
its meaningless.
who am i doing this for?
why should i have to do this crap?

supermotor so what. get lost.
i wanted to be a normal person.
i wanted to have a normal life.
i dont want you all expect something for me.
i dont give a damn about it.

I'm weak enough.
why. you are still insulting me?
why are you still hoping me to give u a smile?

Lifes. full of agonies.lies.hatred.irritations.

Leave out all the rest.


I dont want to live for somebody.
i wanted to live for myself.
only me.
not you,not them,not him.

=(

-best frens-
yh+ me + ks


aaron+me+sky


elixe+me+soul


;O
im sad actually. i miss the old ones.. esp someone... i miss the times we joke , prank and others.
hahahas..why...~!



-------
MUM DONT LET ME BUY contact lens!!! T_T

_____`` 我們，冷淡了

對不起
我沒像她那麽活潑
我沒像她會說甜甜的話讓你開心
我沒像她那麽愛講話

我
會悶嗎？

我
有讓你覺得很爲難麽？

我一個人在自言自語，
我發現
我
吃醋了。

我愛吃醋。
怎麽辦？

Hestitation

See you so moody.i didnt know wad to do.wad should i say to cheer u up? wad should i do to make u happy back?most scare is when u no mood,i keep thinking wad should i do..... i wanted to make u happy! but i just dont know wad to do. hestitate , wad should i do.someone a pro or watever pls teach me wad should i do, so it could help me n him too ;(

SOMETIMES

SOMETIMES I DUNU WAD TO SAY TO U TO MAKE U HAPPY AND MAKE U ER, WATSOEVER.SO I ALWAYS SPEECHLESS.I DIN MEAN TO BE QUIET CUZ I SCARE SAY WRONG WORD THEN GG.COM AND SAYONARA.LOL.I LOVE YOU AND I CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS I DONT WANNA HURT U . SOORY WHY ME USING CAPLOCKS. LMAO!ME SIBEH TULAN AR.WHY THAT GUY KEEP FAN SHIN SHIN! KILL HIM ARGHHH TOT OWNSELF VERY EN TAO AR? BEH SIA PAI. **** OFF PLZ TQ

Dissapointed. ;(

Like
when im reli reli reli reil reli excited about it.
and you're reli not into it AT ALL!

i was like
see this!
you goes
owh, no mood.

....

T_T me so korlian dai~
haiya
cannot be so bad de rite?

no mood jiu no mood lo~~~
its okay
i wont blame
XD

CUZ IM HYPERRRRR!!~
lol
<3always.

wkakakakakakakak

haizz~

Sensitiveness

ahskflhaflhsflkhsfhslfhalkfjkfjksfjkh!
WTH

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

why are you so sensitive.-.-

you know i got nothing to show wad

u terus zzzz

haizzzzz

-.-

u dont know my feelings

i late reply u dont like

u late reply i dont mind aso

............

SPEECHLESS

haih.

I May Be Not The One

Time goes by____________

noticed that,why?
is it me or,
You seems like u hated m e,
you seems like fading away from me,
you seems like ignoring for no reason

Is it, the days that i expected is coming?

i dont want that to happen.

i love u.

thats all i can say.

May be i dont know you enough.

when you're angry.

I cant even comfort you.

and make you happy.

Sometimes i felt so useless to you.


Jealous + worry + confused

Sorry

sorry i made you angry
sorry i made you dissapointed
sorry i made you sad
sorry

all i can do is jst say sorry

i love you.i reli do.

why you cnt understand me.

well i admit is my wrong.

you willing to sacrifice.but i cant.

im SELFISH.

sigh.

sorry babe ___________________T_T

....

actually,

we are two different places peeps.

but why.

;|

what should i do.

Fairy Dance

Listening to the song,

Fairy Dance from Peter Pan,the boy who will never grow up, in a place called Neverland.

The music,

makes the remember the old times, imagining the old times, when we're young,having fun, jokes, stupid arguements. laughs.

"this song reminds me of old times. when you didnt care about drugs, music or sex or crap like that...when you just wanted to have fun and play with your friends. its times like those that truly matter in this life :)"

"The song sounds lke the first time you touch a rose petal with delicate fingers, winter rises in a breathe and falls back on the land and the first dance of a young couple their movements matched in perfect harmony the first twinkling stars of heavens eyes and the dawn as she wakes its the dew in the grass so gentle and soft and the first rainfall. Its the bright eyes of a new child and the laugh of a young one who's mind is still light. Its the call of adventure"

"Remember when we were kids, when we believed in magic, when we believed anything was possible? Then came the world and people telling us we should forget those silly notions. So we stopped believing and moved on and grew up, robbing ourselves of an important part of us. I don't think we should ever grow up. Not completely anyway. Never, ever stop believing."

this 3 comments are from the song,their thought are just exactly like mine.the song is like a scenario with adventure,romance,encountering to sort of dangers, and somehow pure.

;D suddenly, i wish to go back to my childhood,why,why last time im so eager to grow up?now i insisted to go back times that we used to play,cry and laugh our heads off.

If we are forever young. how amazing could that be?

FINALLY!

told my sis liao~~

she say she dont mind,

just call me becareful~

now we're offically

TOGETHER!!!!




;DDDDD~

guys.

For those who know me.

pls keep it down,

i dont wan let my sis know yet.

about my relation.

^_^

erk

-.-

erm...

are

we

considered

together

edi?

?
?????

!?!?!??!?!

OMG I DUNO!?

CRieD

"......"
"suak liao lah,不要講了"
* off phone*

我生氣，因爲你一直提他們。

我不爽！

發了一個信息:

"u wan go do revision or watever,go ba."

* 過了幾分鈡*

後悔了。

我好想念他...

我想念他的聲...

拼命打給他。

沒有人接，

好擔心他......

miss call 他 5 ~6 次。

還是沒人接。

打給 女兒 & 馨.

好想哭 :(

他們說我第一次那麽激動。

對咯

我也覺得因爲他，我變傻了。

這是女兒(sheinne)和他的對話。

	*i did like her seriusly . z whats wrong with her? why? tell me sudddenly bad mood dint even think bout my fellings zzzzzzzzzzz
	ya i like her im not playboy okay z im honestly like her why?she scared me that plying her fellings izzit? takut or?*

*.at least think bout me lar
if i talk allwys..sure will give up 1 day
at least talk togher
laugh tgher
smile tgher
i wan that*

-did u tell tis to her b4?
no.. rite?
den hw is she going to knw wat u thk?
same like nw..-


*how to tell ?
zzz
later she cry o*

-if i dont say anything nw, will u knw abt her?-

*ask her 2 realise ownself
u tell to her
everything bout this
gurls tell to gurls better
bff rite?go n tell ba -.-..
i will treat her with better
-.-..
dont allwys depands at me for smile
u know couples rite
sometiems gurls goota cheer up their bf aslo
hope you understand z*

-ya..
i understand..-

*until now
she dint even
talk smthing thats make me happyier
zzz
she dint even know to talk..dint even know to talk sweet wrods
zzzz -.-...
like this
boys will get bored
i tell you
call for get nothing
only u talk
zz*

-will u thk she is very talkative if she keep talking there?
den will u give her another chance?-

*think bout me lar zz
nope
talk a bit aslo can
she so quite u know?
with me only i guess
ya i will give her chance
let her know
what i write*

-i will.u n her will b better..
-.--

*@@
good*

-she is my mimi u knw..
i hope she find a good guy..
haha-

*dont wory
i like her okay
shes everthing 2 me -,-..

-u knw she was like omg omg.. wat i done..
-.-!!!!-

*-,-..
she got cry bo jz nw?
i did *

-got la..
haiz..
pity both of u..
too romantic..
wakaka-

*badly?
same as i
u tell to her
that i will call her
ok?..
u tell after 10 minute i call..
><* then~ 他就打了給我， 我們一直say sorry 過後沒事了 ><
我們答應對方不可以哭，不可以再這樣了。


"i like u."
^^

jealous.

JEALOUS
our rights?


......
myb i shouldnt be jealous.
myb im overreacting...
myb i should forget about it.


haiz.
how?
am i too.......duno how to say-.-....

help!!!!

why he like dat 1...

Me N him

Ytd chat with him ~

talk talk then he asked,

him:" ehh,who the guy u like?pls tell me.TELL ;("
me:"y u so wan 2 know?"
him:"simply"
him:"how long u know him?"
me:"hmm, how to say.beginning of the year?"
him:"lol .how come sounds like its me
sorrie.
strong feelings."
me:" ==
-.-..."
`` i skip few part, not necessary to tell ;x``

him:"hmmm most important is he treat u well.
a good girl like u should hav a good type bf'
me:"good type like u?"
``skipppp~``

me:"if i say the guy is u. @@"
him:"wait.
do u mean me?"
me: "ya
-.-."
him:"lol.
actually i know.i just act stupid"
me:"i know u knew. ~.~"

`` SKIP lol.``

him:"u like him.
i like her."
me: " @@"
him:"actually i like her.but not deeply.
she's cute.
:p"
me:" w8, who u saying ==?"
him:" ah wen ;X"
me:" who-.-?"
him:" i like u.
SETTLE.
-.-"
me: " LOL.
oh.
ic
@@"

---------------------------------------------------------------
Thats all.
a part from yesterdays . ><..

Give up?
Remain it?

If everything could Replay back.
i choose to walk away.

ok. i decided.
I'm going to remain it like this.
i like it like this ;)
wheeeeeeee

omg!!!!

i noticed that
i more n more like u
more n more she bu de ni!!!


aahhhhh!!!!

c.l no good no good, give up? hard leh><

ytd we talk phone.
although talk awhile onli.
i feel so happpy!!!!!!
hahahahahahhah



i love the way u talk to me..
><
make me blushhh!



'and we're heading for a heart heart heart break ~'

等待~

天天儍傻的等你，

等你打電話給我，

聽到你的聲，我感到很開心，

很安慰，很放心，

放心什麽啊？

放心神有好好的保佑你，保護你，

替我守護你，

神啊。

請你替我保護他，

因爲我們可能不能相遇，

只要他和我説話，

已足夠了！

他，

是我目前最喜歡的人。

喜歡罷了，不是愛！

別誤會~

XD

exammm!!!

exam arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!



jyjyjyjyyyY!!!!!!

><
hope wont fail any subjects!!!!
wakaakka

I hate_______________

i hate those feelings.
I HATE EVERYTHING!
why.
i hate you?
actually i dont hate u.
i love talking with u,hang out with u.
but
there's one thing i HATE bout u.
duno why.



>

oh my goooodddd

IM INNN LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
BUT I DONT THINK HE LIKES ME. MYB HE JUST TREAT ME AS HIS MUI2 ONLI!
GAWD


Talk phone with him for 1 hour plus.
he talk girls. i quiet let him say- -
sad lo..
when he says other girls i feel so sad.
haiz




><
huiiyooooo




C.Love~ ( yong chia teach 1 ) ;P

Useless

I felt so useless.
I don't do it well.
I should've improve.

But.
I'm never be the best.

You can't say that.
because.
You didn't improve AT ALL.

You sucks.
You better improve, or else karma charger will eat you up!

@.@

haiz
today fight with harn shin.
accidently yelled at her.
sorry
>_
haiyo.
asked her
izit angry me.
say no. but her face.like no syok .
~.~..

sry harnshin.
i made u angry.
u can dowan talk to me.
important is u happy can d.
i nvm de.
u forever dowan talk to me also x ape.
i dont mind
as long it can make u feel better.

as long i can see your smile.

thats all i want.

sorry.

ice cream ~

still rmb the old times.when we watch movies, suddenly we heard bells ringing. 'it's the ice cream man !!!!' everyone digged their wallet for coins and rushed downstairs to buy the ice cream....


such a happy memories~

LOVE.HATES

LOVE RAN ONLINE FOREVER <3!





bleks .

cant believe u INSULTED me!

u treat me so good but

behind my back u actually did INSULTED me.

haihhh..

say me act cute + UGLY .

i din act cute ok .

~~

Bluring ________

Ytd i saw yur facebook post that u're in relationship.

well, seriously.

at first i dont feel anything .

then my heart..

started to pain.

So , is that your answer ?

if it reli is ,

ill understand , ill let go ..

^^

today L.L say : dont so sad ( in chinese =.=) to me.

yaya..he know that i saw that post then sot d liao v=.=v

wanna thanks him ~ :D ty ~ xD ty for caring..

Confront

How can u say like this?

do u ever stand at HER side and think?

Do u think dat that is her wrong?

everything?

well ,

myb half of it is her wrong but

how can u judge a book by its cover?

one is better than two?

Although I'm alone on a straight long road,

i never get bored.

I met different kind of things and peoples,

which made my life wonderful .

Thanks for everything~

HaIz~

sometimes,when im walking with U all...

i saw,

our shadows never combine together.

There's always a distance between us...

why?

Am i being left out?

why im always alone?

i know u guys will say : we will always by ur side...

i heard it enough..

Im always alone.

everytime i look into the sky, i saw loneliness

everytime it rains,my heart cries.

I won't show it to everyone that im alone.

Im trying not to make it so obvious.

u all din owe me anything.

so, it's okay .

i don't reli mind ..

uh oh~~

[xx]- someone that i could'nt tell out

[vv]- "

wahhh yuan lai xx like vv de lo ~~~

haiz~~ 'kan bu chu'

no la where got kan bu chu - -so obvious la~~~
k dowan say ad- -

later kena kill~

No LoV3?

I dowan love ~~~
i dowan you !!!
i dont need you yet!
so
PLS
go away....i dowan see you anymore...!!!





NEVER NEVER FALL IN LOVE IN HIS LOOKS,BUT THE REAL HIM.

aaaa

fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk f uk fuk fuk fuk FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK FUK F UKfuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk fuk FUK FUK F UK FUK

SORRY BEING RUDE.

BUT

F.U.C.K oOo _|_

Results

English___90
KH____72
GEO___50
BC____63
SC___78 WTF
SJ__68
BM__________57.5(all get bad result lo)
PM___??
MM____??
PS____din count yet
SIVIK_____??



:D

==

U break with ur gf ad...

so wat???

i dont care zzzz

still say : wan to be my wat wat?

why dont u just say it out loud? say GF this word so hard?

HAH!

myb u din break with ur gf yet lur zzzzzzz


i REJECT U!

BAKAKAKAKAKAK!

I wanna change

i wanna change.
my everything.
not my personalities.
i love my personalities.
i wanna change my looks .
including my hair and my leg .
i wanna have long hair.
i wanna get rid of my leg's scar.




i wanna have a boyfriend.


LOL ! XD

Problemss

well , i think i currently had 3 problems
And,
it's all about boys
3 different guys , which way to go?
alright here we go ,

1st guy
aaron ,
Our relationship get a little closer.
don't get it wrong , i didn't mean that we're together.
just , i don't know.
i like him?

2nd guy
Siang,
Today 13th of march,
i went out with a group of friends.
we hang out and watch Alice in Wonderland.
alright the point is,
i wanted to see him badly,
but he said that he just had a hair cut ,
look stupid,
fine ,
i gone mad, pissed.
i like him ?

3rd guy,
bullet,
i confessed to him , my feelings,yesterday.
he said that he will give me his answer after his competition,
so,
how?



_______________________________ XO____

O.o

eheheheheh !!
see ppl bog write story nehhx
very very pro !!
but then
i also wan to write !!!




hmm but write wat neh?
i think i will write about half my real life , half fake de lor!xDD
of cuz the name also will be diff too....xD
and yah i will involve some of my real life fren too !
so watch out guys !
i will write the blog half chinese and english
xDD thats Malaysian style wadd...xDDD


i cant think title yet...
=P

exam coming and im facing pc ..
pro!!

aiyo yo yo yo...

oi oi oi oi oiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!
u r...since last year i dont like ur personalities d..
not hate all ur personalities la , just some of it...mini minor part

1stly, i would like to say
P
L
E
A
S
E

STOP SAYING NONO TO SHIN LA!
that nono reli no relationship with shin la !!!!
cant u see after u said it, shin face start turn black and even got one time throw pen??
i know that she likes u , but, u're making her sad and dissapointed.
and i know u like her too rite? then WHY THE HELL are u doing this to her !?!?

2ndly,
U say ppl ,play ppl , hit ppl , hurt ppl feelings , WE dont mind.
But we say u , play u , hurt ur feelings , u MIND?!?!?!?!?
wth??
where got like dat de!?!?!
zzzz , u joke to us ( also sometime reli lame ) we will still be happy dat u're happy
but when we jst a LIL a LIL soft joke, u cant accept?!?
U dont like shin have boys around her, but
what about u?
always with those girls , SHOWING OFF UR PRESENT FROM GIRLS !?
u know dat shin likes u , dont u know this will hurt her??
and i just hannaa..... nia ma , u pun angry ?
i also din scold u that u scold me cb, i diam diam saja.
i think u keep say cbcbcbccbb to me , VERY SIOK KA????zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!

I just not so like ur attitude ESPECIALLY TO SHIN!
why u sometime show her black face? shin so worried and sad !!!!!
i see also sad la


Shin willing change for u , i also long time din saw her with guys ply ply d lo
she changes !!!! cant u see that???? BECAUSE OF U !



im not putting pressure on u , i just wan to let u know , the feelings.

lalallallalal 17/2/10

wake up
EXCITED! YAY SKATIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
went there bout 12 noon , walk walk upstairs to ktv , saw kah wei and shin ,
shin ya~ still make up , nice hair ^^
kah wei ~ long time no see!! hit u xD
then go in ktv room , first time! so small==
see them sing sing..wait seng wong, then go skate !
yay~
i spyyyy with my lil eyes..k.siang.....white shirt white pants , earings(one side ) = WOOT!
blur with the cashier, then went in ~
waited so long to take the roller blades.
everything check ~ lets go~ round round ~
saw k.siang...ATTACK!!!!!RAWRS!
grab his hand tight...dunno why his face..=.= long face...dowan choi him , skate skate~
left hand shin , right hand su yinn , both leng luiz ~ i am the most luckiest gal( if im les)!!!!
hahahahahha

then boom!!
k.siang fall down.....BLOOD EVERYWHERE ! OMFG!
wan go comfort him....the worker say : y u all stand here, cant u see blood here? very good to see meh? （in chinese)
pek chek ...go skate...
then one round back...hide and spy with my lil eyes......on him...o_o..
he still can smile....see his blood...ouch.....
then he go back d....ben lai still wan to.....

ANYWAY！
later, 3 pm we went for a movie called, 72 tenants of prosperity.
not bad , laughters all along in the cinema.^^

5pm...SKATE! kah wei dowan skate...he say march onli ply with us..PROMISE YAH!
then shin with han han..=.= that guy....keep 'qiao'( hokkien) my shin shin...KILL EU!
then i with su yinn skate...with her fren...guy lai de...duno name wat=.= like korean...
su yinn say is kl ppl...icic...o.o

then 6 pm come out liao...shin still with han....jia xin say....kah wei face black black...izit...?
go THE GIFT . bought wrapping papers.. called mum, chat a lil with cai shan,jia xin and kah wei.
shin come out d.kah wei face expression straight change..-.-..


then i went home liao~ xD sweat-ing== stinky~


reli reli fun lo today,and superb! very many ppl!!!! got mountain got sea ( chinese idioms )
xD

Rest In Peace...Loh Boon Shin 10.2.2010

Until now i still cant believe that she had left this world.....she cant over her 18th birthday, new year and so on....so pity...i remember we went to bukit merah b4, she also came b4 to my houz.....such a innocent gal , but god, took away her life with incomplete task.....why....why....


ah boon, i will always miss u , so do my sis .....forever remember the days we been through, the days with ur laughter, the days with your overwelming smile, kindness and sincere heart ..........why it must be u???!!....



Emo-ing

>-<~

my BIRTHDAY !

yep as in B I R T H D A Y !

well, i made cookies for my friends~

one of my fren...he said im like a sales girl promoting somesort of biscuits -.-... zzzz~

But as long as you all happy , so am i ! =)

i wanna thanks Mei Ting , Jie Jing , Fang Mei , Yun Mei and Kah Wei (Ur Limited Edition candy bouquet ~ ) THANKS ALL OF EURR GIFTSS ! MWUAKK ALL!! HAHA!!!

Mummy , although u just bought me a slice of cake , it's satisfying for me already~ love u !! xD





9_____2___________2010

Skip `` till ` afternoon ,

Back from tuition,

....

Mum : today wan to fry bayam?

Me: ok~~

Mum : fried xxxx (-.-forget wat she said) , u know how to fry ?

Me : duno ~~


swt...=.=...

Lalaalalalalalalalalal

Bullet !!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

noooooooo!!!

why ahhhh why ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P a i n?

can u tell me???.... where did this pain came from.....

boyfriends , girlfriends?

well, is it normal that girls totally obsessed having a boyfriend?
to show off? to like ... hang out every single day?hug and kisses all day???

well , i just want a guy who i could cuddle him , talk secrets , hang out for movies , jokes , have fun with xD at a time i totally obsess but then , now , kinda lil , becuz i nidda concentrate on my studies!

boyfriends come and go ,
girlfriends come and go ,
love come and go ......

i know that one day ill bumped into a guy and happen something else , hahs xD silly me!
but most of all , couples should've start at friendship until it blossoms into love, only u're like positive sure that she or he's the one!!!! yeah !! and hop on , hold her or his hands and so on ~


well, will that happen to me?

sometimes single is good ~ but still silence around your head , looking at ya phone , no messeges except from besties .....

well ill wait~ till it's time . =)

woots!

wooooots~! long time din write bloggie, well, there's only one thing happen, my beloved sister !! er jie!!!!!! my family and i sent her to penang airport at 14th of jan, sigh, i hold her arms the whole time at airport >,< , my mum still says that uh : like mum and daughter going to separate , hahaha....

until it's time to leave, i hug her twice!!
and i started to cried...
its so sad u know , like the person u know super well, spends lots of time with you,talk secrets with you, jokes and so on is going to leave u for like years !
its so sad.....

before sleep , i cried awhile , until i felt something is inside my pillow case , its a letter....from her!
i read and cried out loud , it's so lovely of her ...hahahah

then i used her pillows and boosters to form like a body shape beside me onli i can sleep well, i know it's stupid and crazy , hahh i just cant get over it



er jie!! i love u !!!! u're the best sis i ever had, although theres been some arguement between our sisterhood, i still love u and always respect you, good lucks at aussie alright .



love dajie too!! xD

aaaaa~

yuan lai like dat let go....also hurt....aihx.....

>__<

should've look forward,

who knows.

something,

or could be anything,

might happen .....?

xDD

1. 被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2. 請老實的回答每一個問題。
3. 不行擅自塗改題目。
4 寫完請點8位小朋友，不可不點。
5. 點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。
6. 那8位小朋友填完問卷，必須把問卷寄回給你填問卷的人。
＊＊＊----------個 人 題 - 10 題----------＊＊＊
01 你叫什么：low wen ching 雯菁
02 你的綽號: angel
03 你的血型：AB or A gua....@@
04 你的星座：aquarius
05 你是男還是女：girl ~
06 你幾歲：15 (2010)
07 你住哪裡：taiping perak
08 你現在的學校：華聯囯中~
09 你有沒有手機 ：有~
10 承上，那是多少：what meaning?=.=
＊＊＊-------- 朋 友 題 - １０ 題---------＊＊＊＊
11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）：harn shin ~ 靖馨 （聽説換名了。。。）o_o
12 你最討厭的人（限１個）：dunno~
13 你最正的女性朋友（限１個）：harn shin ~
14 你最帥的男性朋友（限１個）：dunno leh....o_o
15 什麼樣的女生你最討厭：hiao~ lala 樣~
16 什麼樣的男生你最討厭: 自以爲是~lanci lanyong -.-
17 你的好朋友有誰(不限)：harn shin~ lxD
18 你經常和哪位朋友出去：harn shin....@@
19 你身邊最憨的朋友（限１個，不能自己）：what meaning?-.-
20 你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）：kheng kheng xD
＊＊＊＊-------感 情 題 - １５ 題-------＊＊＊＊
21 你有沒有喜歡的人：dunno...=X
22 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半：cin cai lorh xD
23 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：no lahhh~
24 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：4 ~
25 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友：1 ~
26 你現在有另一半嗎：nope~
27 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：暈~=.=
28 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎：dunoe...
29 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人：ehehehehh.....@@ ..uhhh skip!
30 你和另一半牽手過嗎: no..~
31 你的另一半抱或親過嗎：no ~ lolx
32 你跟異性牽手過嗎：no~
33 是誰，你們什麼關係: -
34 現在有人在追你嗎：got
＊＊＊＊---------- 混 合 題 - １０ 題 ----------＊＊＊＊
35 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：SAD T__________T
36 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：kick her/his butt
37 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：-.- sigh
38 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：wont lah~ suicide onli ma LOL
39 你上課認真嗎：okok lo
40 你功課好不好：okok onli
41 你开电腦都在幹嘛：msn~ fb ~ blogging~
42 你的即时通【msn】有多少个同性：4
44 你的即時通【msn】有多少個異性：3
＊＊＊＊---------- 兇 手 題 - 10題 ----------＊＊＊＊
45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：-.- i syiok onli copy n paste eh
46 这個人對你好不好：good~
47 這個人是你的誰：friend =)
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：les meh...==
49 你們認識多久了：2 year ++
50 這個人是怎樣的人 : friendly and nice xD
51 這個人正／帥嗎：正！
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过:no=.=
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼辦：im les !!!
＊＊＊＊----------- 聯 想 題 - １０ 題---------＊＊＊＊
56 說到正妹你會想到誰：harn shin~
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰: =.=....no？
58 說到憨你會想到誰：wat meaning lmao
59 說到痴你會想到誰：zi yean ~
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰：=.=....
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：harn shin ~
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：ye wei~
63 說到傻子你會想到誰：-
64 說到笑點你會想到誰：seng wong? @@
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰：kheng kheng ~
＊＊＊＊----------- 學 校 題 - 11題 ----------＊＊＊＊
66 你的班導是誰：duno yet....Mr asli?-.-lll
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個: duno yet
68你最喜歡的老師是誰: duno yet~
69 你的英文好嗎：okok lorh
70 你的體育好嗎：bad=.=
71 你的数学好么：okok onli xD
72 你喜不喜歡你的校長：-.- okok lo
73 你的學校好看嗎：okok lo~
74 你的班級是: 3A3!
75 你的班級在幾樓：3~
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skate ! here we go again xD

woke up at 1.30 pm=.= gosh , 5 missed calls from shin , quickly wake up and get change and go out~~~because going to play roller skaate againnnnnn!!!! yeah!

when i reach there it was about uhm.... 2.30 pm -.-lll then i walk upstairs saw shin , earn and siang.o_o him ...==... watever ~!
then wore the shoes and skate~ i love skating so fun !!! xD.
i with siang just talk awhile -.- sigh ...but wat for i sigh ? then he totally ignore me ,=.=* i keep luan him xD
skate skate skate~
shin say wan go tesco ,okay xD.

walk over starbucks, i spy....someone or is one of siang friend is so fimiliar....hmmmmm...i walk towards him , scanning and staring him....narrowing my eyes....omg! i shouted : ehhhh!!!! is yik hong !!!! ahhh!!! he changed...ALOT!xD
well he was kinda paiseh paiseh aneh.-.-lll
i said hi to him , he said so too , he still say long time no see xD true true ~
then we bought drinks...walk back to skating~again~
hong say he dowan skate, but *~ im pro xD i just talk to him he straight go take roller shoes @_@ hehe~

then skate skate~a kid scolded me !!! oh my -.- shocked and terrified.he kept mumbling to me but is obvious he is scolding me , just a kiddo!! and he scold me T_T huhuhuhu

kai kit come d ~ wahhh he change alot o_o!too~
gosh =.= why guys is a transformer? creeppy.....=X
skate skate~
shin and earn wan go back d...i go back to skate for awhile then go back home soon~

with erjie bought mcd xD i show her siang, she also seem shock that his changed xDD well thats for today :)

Farewell...:(

todae afternoon 3.30 pm start our journey to penang because...dajie going back to Aussie T_T sad sad....

daddy drive so damn fast until i wanna puke -.-...
We reach there about 5 or 6, went to Queensbay
We waited so long for parking, daddy kept scolding the ppl bodoh..=.= swt
then when we found one slot,my daddy kept mumbling if whoever stole his place he'll kill him or her...lols so creepy!
then we eat at uhhh...Dragon-i (龍的傳人）dunno say right anot lmao. okaY we ate like cost about RM 1 xx =X woot!
we went to jusco too, spent RM162..=.= oh my.
then we go airport le, check in the luggage and waited for awhile.
and is time to go , we hugged and farewell~~

while on the way back, i slept until i sore throat.=.= swt~

and this is it~
14 days more erjie going too.....T_T i dowean sleep alone.....huhuhuhuhuhuh...