tomotachi

what are friends for anyway?
when you need something then only you go get help from a friend.
in a optimistic thinking, we helped each other.
in a pessimistic thinking, we used each other.

should i believe hate optimistic or the pessimistic?

everyone needed space.
everyone needed time.
Time soon fades off.
friendship followed.

maybe i take it too much.
maybe you guys dont even give a damn about it.
like seriously,
i cried.
dont get that thinking like "ohh so you cried , so you're the innocent one?"
well , i wasnt trying to get sympathy from people

it just that , do i think too much?

friends...

Unfold the Pandora's box

Take it slow.


In our souls, we were implanted with Pandora's box.
it lived within us, forever.
When we opened it, there was no turning back.
It didnt accept objections.

Close your eyes.
spoke to yourself.
Follow the flow of the rhythm,
let it take you to the other dimension.

Open your eyes.
Seeing things that you shouldnt.
Gaze at your long lost happiness.
Try to grap it.
it vanished into ashes.

Turn around.
You're standing alone on a street.
nobody was there.

Look up.
Snow flakes started to fall.
you took out your palm.
snow melted onto your palm
A Sudden chill penetrated your body.

Look down.
you're back where you were again.

untitiled.

you dont know my stories.
so shut up.

Hugs

hugs.
definitely need hugs.
that overwhelming feeling.
takes over my agony.
it drifts off my pain.
and replace it with love.

one day, im gonna drive to somewhere alone.
gazing at the peaceful scenery alone.
and cry alone.

boy , im sorry.
i cant give you my love.
because im not available anymore.
you are my friend.
you cares me alot, whenever im down, you are there for me.
I seriously owe you alot.
but i couldnt pay back.
Sorry, i couldnt love you back.
i only love you as a best friend.
but your love surpass the limit.
which is my mistake, because of me, you fell in love with me.

i didnt think much..
if is that possible, one day, im going to give you a hug.
a long hug.
so that i can take away your pain.
seeing you suffering because of me, it doesnt worth it at all.
all your suffers dont worth it.


boy, im really sorry.
let me hug you, and take away your agonies.

命

现在的我
只能走一步，算一步。
再也不敢放希望太大，太高。
自从失去了妈妈，
本来对未来期望很高的我，慢慢地，往下看，再也没把头抬起来，等待着未来。
未来先生，我告退了。
我的速度慢慢地减少。

这一切，都是一个东西纠缠着我们。
那个就是，命。
命运可以把我们的梦想毁灭。
难道，这一切都和古代一样吗？
皇上可以赐你活和死。
奴才或平民们都认为这一切都是命运。

现在，命运就是我们的命。
我们只能被它操纵，控制。
就算你有多么疯狂的梦想，成就，事业，幸福。
这一切，都是短暂的。

有什么东西是永远的？

本来我们一出生在这个世界，就是等着被控制。

有多么高的欲望，梦想。
自然的。
我们都等待·着收拾它们的尸体。

有时候，
我有想过，妈妈离开了人间，是世界上最幸福的事。
我羡慕了，嫉妒了。
她不用再这世界上争扎。

就算达到了目标，到最后，都要认命。

untitled .

Sometimes i miss him badly.
well, should i say i always miss him?

the feelings sucks when we are separated , by different school.
one at klian pauh , one at hua lian.

x( i miss you and need you !!!!
baka y.j ! , muacks sarangheo xP


SPM trial just over.
my result...uhm can i say good??
here are my results :p
add maths 77
moral 83
physics dunno yet T-T hope its a B or at least an A-?
english 79 ( ONE MORE !)
bm - 63
sejarah 75
bc- 64
mm - 91
chemistry 75
biology 55

ahhhh my biology kills me . head.shot......
gotta push my biology real hard. i dont want a C in my SPM result
but actually i quite satisfy with my result because everything i did it in last minute and i can such result....
heheheheheheeheh im a one lucky girl!
bc...no hope..i asked for a B . thats all i want ...heheheh\
and bm !!! A?? how can i get an A when i never get one!
T_T
but my forecast result are more important than my spm result because i use my forecast result to apply my january intake...............

speaking of jan intake....
im going to austrailia next year!!!
50% happy because i can be with my sister
50% not happy because im going to leave him .... oh my beloved ones.~

can i really bear the times without him? although now we dont really see each other except he asked me out or tuition .
distance? can it really be ignored? can our relationship last long even we are far apart from each other?

i want him.
im gonna hold tight this relationship i had now.
i am not going to let him go.
because ....he is a unique and cute and stupid boy that i love <3 p="p">
i love you bendan :3

发 泄 .

不懂

我其实不懂,为什么有时候看到他

应该觉得开心的

你心爱的人呐,应该是很开心的吗

但是

不懂做么的,只好勉强微笑

不是故意要欺骗他.

只是不要他担心...

我那时很想,很想...

得到他的拥抱.

今天回家后,

很想搞失踪,做傻事.

但又做不出.

你们也会这样吗?

你们会不懂什么原因而崩溃,想要大哭一场.

有时候觉得很累.

其实

我都希望"她"可以带走我,带走我离开这个复杂的世界.

我不敢想或看未来,

每天看到老爸每晚都喝醉,婆婆因为她而哭,姐姐一直为钱烦恼所以一直打工.

每天睡觉

我都很想梦到我们一家人开开心心过日子

"她"还活着的日子...

那么快已经要一年了.

她已离开我们的日子.......

我很怕....我不懂我在怕什么....就觉得...没有安全感...

哎...