30 December 2012 | 7:55pm

woke up in the morning and had breakfast with beloved daddy and sister.
when im inside the car with daddy , i dont know why , theres always a silence between us , there werent a fight going on , it just , a total silence , a wide gap between him and I ?
went to yew lee and ate keow toeh soup , yum yum .

afternoon,
i dont know why , theres something wrong between him and i .
well now this is a different him , he was so called " my lover " ( thats what we called him between my sisters instead of just saying out his name ). this few days, we just , gone speechless , is it just me or does he even realize theres something fishy?
one day, i went out tesco with my sister , i tried to tell her the problem , hoping for a resolution from her.but something just hit me , is it that im just too serious on him?
you know , i am the mood-will-just-drop-suddenly-and-mean type of girl.
and he is just an ordinary-and-simple-minded type of boy.
are we even meant to be together or not?
i think i just get too serious on him , he is cheerful and happy all along , and i just freak out and get myself a bad day.
he was not to be blamed, it was me all along.
sometimes i just couldnt tolerate a simple thing.
why is this happening on me?
it isnt like i was on pms ~!
urgh, seriously , i need to change my temper!
but him , i dont know.
is this relationship right?
i know at the beginning, but somehow now i'm kinda lost what i am after at.
he is fine, caring  , and cheerful .
no worries in his life.
but me?  i freak out alot , i can  be happy at the first second , and moody or grumpy at the next minute.
is this even normal?
after i threw my temper on him , i regretted immediately.
but sometimes i even feel that this is a right thing to do , seriously , imma a crazy girl.

even if i threw my temper on him , he still smiles and wait for me .
i dont want to treat him like that anymore,
is there any resolution?
sigh

untitled part infinity

just back from family trip to hong kong and korea
its really nice !
the weather there is cold and cozy
the food was simply amazing...

now i know, i love meats!!! esp beef ! hahahahaahahahah!

hong kong , is shopping heaven.
but im so not a shopping typo
but i still enjoy alot .

too bad my elder sis couldnt join us.
only me dad and 2nd sister.
everything was perfect and nice.

when i went to disneyland.
i remembered about mom.
when i walk around.
i remember i was with mom, talking happily, so excited.
but now. 'theres no her anymore.
tears almost burst out.
but i held back.
i should be happy right? why would i sad?
i mean , i should be grateful.
mommy is now somewhere happy now..
without suffering any pain.
she might be beside us.
watching us having fun.
and smiling.




damn, i miss her beautiful smile.

통증

yeah ,
i did very very very angry  .
i did very upset .
i screamed.
goddammit, why is this so complicated?


tears.
so what ?
no pain no gain.
thanks for the memories.
ill cherish it.
haha .
kamsahamida ! x)
saranghae !

* have to burn something =.= never got a chance to give it... wuwu*

SPM ended !

whee exam ended !
challenged of a part of life ,mission accomplished!
well it's just a part of life ,
there are more things to do , to face, to encounter, to try.
so next year is college life~

new stuffs to put in my mind
new people
new surrounding !

now after spm , my life is just like......a rubbish =.=
but im going holiday soon ^.^
oh my pity boy, gonna leave him ~ T_T

every day just face laptop , with sis , daydreaming...
chin gu? nah , i think i got neglected
ho ho ho
well im ready to take the blame
hahahahahhahahahahaha
not the first time ! oh well, this is life.
people come and go!
they just go , well, let them be, maybe im not that important.
just sit down.
smile to them.
this is life right?
hehe ^^ go ba go ba.
i dont mind anymore.
i see it through now.
look at the bright side, you got your life.
i got mine?
maybe i take it too much, i should let it go slowly now...
do watch me disappear.
goodbyes ! annyeong !