paranoid much?

i been thinking a lot lately.
this one and only question , is dad going to remarried with other woman?
well you see he is now ...considered as widower.
he may marry another woman ,depends on his desire .

i dont know why , but i think i will hate her if one day i am going to have a stepmother.
usually in movies stepmother is evil , and just want money or fame.

i asked my sisters whether they can accept another woman becoming our mother.
they say as long as dad is happy , then it is okay.

of course, i surely wont call her "mummy". might as well calling her real name or adding "aunt" at her name.
i really cant accept the fact of the replacement on mummy's place.
its ridiculous !
seriously, i know now she(stepmother) doesnt exist now, but i can picture her as a evil woman, trying to suck all the fortune from my family.
curse you evil woman ! go and get another man !

or maybe dad have a woman already?and he's not telling neither me nor my sis?
i cant shake off the thought of that.
daddy hiding a woman outside, grandma once said it .
saying that dad really having a woman, but i scolded her immediately, saying that was absurd.
what? i know scolding the eldest one is wrong.
but when someone told you that your dad having a china woman secretly , do you like it?
hardly a yes right?

i will worry more when i went to australia. There wont be anyone checking on him , my grandma dont talk much to him , so does daddy. he could keep on drinking till he get seriously drunk , and hangover for the next day.

back to the main question, if dad abruptly introduce a woman who is going to be my future stepmother , what would i answer? yes for his sake of happiness and someone able to watch him ?
 no for anti-replacement of mummy's place?

or i just thinking funny things which will not happen ?

你的真心在哪里

呵呵呵呵
太久没有跟你聊天了。
怎么啦？难道终于有空位给我了吗？
对我说对不起，还是真好听。

当然，我不是冷血动物。
我一定会原谅的。
但是， 我们之间是注定结束了。

你骗我。
你骗了我的感情。
我可是没有那种耐性，你骗了又骗。我终于看得出你的真面目。
太可笑了！！！！

你说你想我，爱我。
为何这些事情发生呢？！

你跟我说，这，难道不是骗吗？?

我真的无法跟你走下去，这一段感情，我丢了，毁了。
现在才来求原谅？
太迟了
我们，结束了。
去找你的朋友吧。你，其实不需要我。
当你需要我，就是你寂寞的时候。

再见了。